This is an old man story
In the past life was a lot harder than today, it was very different, there were a lot of things that had to be done by hand, as you can see this is an old man harvesting wheat the old way, it would take many hours of work to produce food those days.
This is an old man story
Welcome to my hub (5), an old man story,
This article is
part of an old man life story and the continuation of our previous hub, My life my struggles, (the link, you
want to check it out).
Dear readers, even though here I am going to lament
again about the life that I had to live when I was young, because it was not
that good, one should keep in mind that life is what it is and most times we
cannot change it at all, even if we try hard to change it. So, we should accept
life the way it is and try to do the best with what we have, by using what one
has learned from life itself, that is the only positive thing that we could do,
we need to think positive all the time, and then nobody could take away that
positive feeling from us, if we live that way and think positive life becomes a
lot easier, so your life experience will always count for something positive,
provided you can use whatever has been positive in your life.
Now, let me explain about this old man story,
perhaps I should have called this article my life story plus, including my life
missed opportunities and my destiny, plus other things that usually happen
during life. Anyhow, you are all invited to read my article because this is my
life story and nobody else and I invite anyone to read it, it does not matter
for what reason you read it, perhaps you would read it to compare my life story
to your own life story, or just for curiosity sake, because you would like to
know how some other people have lived their own lives.
Here again dear readers I have to say that, we all
try to live our lives the best way we can, and we all wonder at those things
that have happened to us during our lives, some of which might be good and some
not that good; but once we have lived those life happenings, they all seems to
us as if they were a dream, they are like a sort of dream and distant memories
that will come back to our minds when we try to remember them, sometimes we
wonder at the amount of events that we have been through during our lives, and
it seems almost unreal that we have gone through all those things, but
nevertheless it has been our life that we have lived and our life is a story
that could be told if we want to tell it, so, we would like to tell you our
life story, perhaps just to compare our life story with other life stories, we
would also like to tell our story hoping that there is somebody willing to read
our life story, perhaps to compare it with his/her own life story, because our
own lives could have been similar or very different from their story, but it is
still is a story that could be told, because, as you know everybody of us has a
story that could be told and so have I.
So, I have written my own life story that I would
like to tell you here; now, I don’t remember exactly how or when this idea of
writing my own life story has started in my mind, perhaps I have written part
of it down somewhere else for personal reasons, but I don’t remember now
exactly why I wrote that article the first time.
But anyhow, the reason why I started to write it
does not matter much now, because as you know there are many people these days
that write their own life story; so, I would like also to tell you my own life
story for many reasons, and also to prove to myself that everyone of us as a
story to tell, whether my story might or might not be as great as somebody else
story it does not matter much, because here we are not competing who is telling
the best story, we are only trying to tell our own life story, but every story
has its own merits and could become interesting in different ways; sometimes a
story could be interesting just because it is unique in its own ways; I am
saying this because I believe that I have had a rather hard life when I was
young, and it was unique in its own ways, and therefore when I am writing my
life story, I might be going to lament about this hard life that I have lived,
but that was the way that I have lived my life, and that is the way that I am
going to tell it.
Because I am telling you about this hard life that
I have lived, I feel a bit worried, because I guess that not many people enjoy
reading or listening to somebody else story, when all they do in their story is
to lament their bad luck, these sort of stories are not much fun to read or
listen to. But anyhow this is my real life story, and this is the reason why I
have called this hub an old man story, because old men usually would be
lamenting about things one way or another, so let us see what this old man
(that is me) is going to tell about his life story, his observation and his
missed life opportunities, while he is telling us his own life story and
lamenting, but at the same time trying not to lament much for fear of being
boring to the readers, as my life as not had anything exiting that would
attract the attention of the readers, it was a very simple life and no
unforeseen happy events happened; I have just said this because today while I
am editing this article, in the news there are these refugees that are running
away from their native land in search of a better and safer way of life in
another country; one day these refugees could really have a story to tell; but
that would be their story, so let me go back to my own life story.
Anyhow, even though I am writing my life story now,
I believe that I have still a lot to learn how to write my own biography, but I
am going to try writing it anyhow, while I am trying to learn a bit more from
the Internet every day; Autobiography
- How to Write Your Autobiography, but let us
continue and tell you, my life missed opportunity.
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My
life missed opportunities
While I am telling my life story and all those life
opportunities that I have missed during my life, which sometimes make me a bit
sad. At the same time, I would like to continue to tell you my life story,
because it makes me remember all the memories and experiences that have shaped
my life, so let me tell you my own special life story from the very beginning
of my life, where I am going to tell you who I am, where have I been where I am
now and how I got here, and here and now while I am writing my own life story
in hub pages. I am writing this story hoping that one day my family and friends
might read my story and understand a bit more about me, I know that this might
be just a wishful thinking, because families and friends usually don’t read
their stories.
So as I have said, I have decided to tell you my
own life story, because of something that has happened to me recently during my
life; you see this something has pushed me to start writing many things
including my own life story, so this is also the reason why I am writing now.
You see, now that I am in my early sixties, and therefore I am in the later
part of my life span. I have to say that although I am an old man, and
therefore, experienced with life and with what life can throw at us and sometimes
it can be rather bad; one of my latest experience has made me feel so
inadequate and frustrated lately, for not being able to reach out and make
happen, what I wanted so desperately to happen. And this is one of the reasons,
or perhaps the most important reason, why I have started to write my own life
story here and also go public in Hub Pages.
I have to say here also, that to be able to write
in Hub Pages and have my own article in a public place to be read from anybody,
it makes me feel proud of myself, since in my younger part of my life I have
never believed that I would be able to do that, even if I am doing it only in a
small way; this makes me feel that I have fought back that feeling of being
inadequate and now I feel more confident about myself, just because I am
writing my story in Hub Pages, but let us go back to my life story.
Anyhow, I have also to say that I have felt so many
other times that feeling of being inadequate during my life, which I believe
that it has been all because; I was put in a disadvantaged position when I was
young, and for that reason, I was not able to better myself to a satisfactory
standard at that time, which otherwise I would have been able to achieve if I
had the chance; so, these are my laments in this life story and these laments I
am telling you here-under.
For these lost chances I can’t blame anybody, and I can’t even blame my mother
for putting me in such disadvantaged position, when I was very young, because
she was forced from disastrous and tragic events beyond her control. So, I have
come to the conclusion that I can only blame Fate, because it struck a terrible
blow to our family when I was very young.
Therefore, if in my younger years I had been in a position to go to high school
at least for a few more years, or perhaps as long as my capacity to learn was
used to the maximum; Then I could have learned whatever they teach at school,
and at the same time as I would have been in a more social environment, I would
have been able to improve my social and communication skills while I were at
school, those skills which are so important to communicate well with the rest
of the community.
Therefore, if I had acquired those social skills when I was young, I would have
been accepted better socially, and I would have felt happier with myself,
instead of feeling sometimes left out from the mainstream, and feeling
concerned and isolated.
You see; if I would have had a chance to learn more at high school, then I
would have learned more at the time when I was young, and from that extra
education I could have been more successful later on in my life, because I
could have used my acquired knowledge, and those social skills which I never
had the chance to learn then, because if I had, I could have achieved better
things and ripped more and better rewards from within this society that we are
living in today, which seems to me that it is more and more demanding about
these social aspect.
This is one of those things that has made me feel
sometimes inadequate, and it has followed me most of my life. You see, those
social skills that I have been talking about must be learned when one is young,
while frequenting high school and mixing with society around yourself, so that
these social skills would become part of oneself and therefore one can use them
to their own advantage all their lifelong. For me it was not like that at all
and most of those skills that we require in life I had to learn bit by bit the
hard way, the best way I could.
Anyhow, about this issue of feeling inadequate is
going to be written in one of our hubs called, Hello my world,
where I am going to sound like a rebel and break out of this life drawback in a
drastic way, where I will try to change my own way of thinking; but now let us
continue to follow our own ways, and our own destiny the way that we have
always done.
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Perhaps we have our own destiny
Today I have to say that I feel that there might be
something we call our destiny, so one might be born to live a certain way of
life, or perhaps our destiny is already written in God’s book of our own life
and in a way we are forced to live our lives according to what is written in
it, therefore our life is going to be influenced by some life events that are
behind your control. Now I don’t know what to believe about what I have just
said, but somehow I believe that there is a sort of destiny for every one of
us, but at the same time, I hope that our destiny is not completely fixed and
it can be modified to a certain extend if we have the opportunity and continue
to try our best, we might be able to improve our destiny.
You see, I believe that if we believe that our
destiny is fixed, then there is no way that we could change it, so, it is
better if we believe that we can change it somehow. Anyhow, those things that
happen in our lives might happen for a reason, so they affect our life one way
or another. Therefore, I believe that there is a sort of destiny because of
what has happened to me, and perhaps it still continues to happen even today.
Anyhow, dear readers as I have already said, I have
come to blame my fate for most of my life short comings and pains. Because I
believe that when I was born, I was born with a good chance to live a better
life; but it was not to be, that is the reason why I think that perhaps it was
my destiny. So my dear readers if you happen to read my life story, I am sure
that you may very well ask. Why is it that I am telling you mostly sad stories?
Is it possible that in my whole life, I had so many sad happenings and not any
happy ones?
Well, I should say here that I have had a few happy happenings, but if I had to
tell you about my happy happenings they would be so few and very boring indeed,
and nobody could or would be interested to hear them anyhow, because they seem
to me that they are normal things and not important at all.
So, I would like to talk now most of all, about those happenings that have
affected my life in a negative way, one could say that they have made me
struggle during my life, as I have already said in my last hub, My life my
struggles, this is the link to my life struggles, My life my struggles
I know dear readers that you might be thinking that it is meaningless to write
down all this useless stuff, as nobody might be willing to read it or get any
real benefit from it.
But I am thinking that if my writings survive in a
hidden corner just for a generation or two, and even if my writings are not
well written, as my English written skills are not the best at the present
time. But I believe that in several years when time passes away, then whoever
would be reading my life story writings will find them more interesting,
because life was so different in the old days, because we used to live in a
different way altogether, you see, I have started to live my life long before
the great changes of nowadays, so, this difference is what might make this life
story interesting to read.
And if what I am writing here is going to be useless anyhow, I will do it just
for practice, so that I would be able to improve my English language and also
my writing skills. So that, I could feel more confident within my own self, and
therefore I would not feel to be in such a hopeless and desperate position;
like that time when something happened to me at a certain stage of my life, but
at that time I was not able to cope with it properly, and because I wasn’t able
to cope that matter in my case became also very painful, because of what I
wanted to reach and do but I wasn’t able to, here I am talking about a matter
that was and indeed is a very delicate matter of personal nature, so I am not
going to disclose anywhere willingly.
But I would like to tell you that my helpless and desperate feelings, which I
will write about them later on including what was it that caused me so much
distress. But this distress has also made me come to a decision, which is that
I have to improve myself in my lacking writing skills. So, now although I am
getting old, I will try very hard if I can to improve myself, so that, my
improvements may still help me in my later years to reach where I have failed
before. You see this is my view about life; when you fail you get up dust
yourself and try again harder.
Therefore, by writing my own life story, I will also help myself to improve my
English and my communication skills, which after all they are the art of being
able to write or to say, the right words at the right time with the right
meanings; since saying meaningful and skilful phrases is just like when one
writes them down.
So please don’t be annoyed by my life story and allow me to write a few things
that I have gone through during my own life. I would like to write them; so
that I could show you how hard life was then and how hard life can sometimes
be, since this applies particularly to me; because during my life so many
things have changed since I was a child; I know of course that things will
still keep changing nowadays and in the future, and very likely even faster
than before, but now because we know of the oncoming changes we are able to
accept them more easily than before, and therefore they will not seem that bad
to us anyhow, because at least we believe that we know where we are going in
the near future.
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I believe that this article is becoming too long,
because today people seem very busy and don’t like very long stories, so I
better stop writing this article now. But, an old man life story, IS TO BE
CONTINUED: With another hub called, my farm life experience. See you next time,
as we have more things to tell you.
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